Releasing Traumas

***This article will explain what overcoming traumas and releasing them will bring you.  I will later go more into detail into how to release each individual negative habit or fear that is associated with such traumas in separate articles.*** 

I’ve experienced the worst of traumas—child sexual abuse, and rapes as an adult.  For the longest time, I lived entirely based on fear; afraid I wasn’t safe, afraid people would abuse me, afraid people would take advantage of my kindness and have me do things I didn’t want to, and always feared worst case scenario.  These fears controlled every aspect of my life.  I built my life since I was 11 around these thoughts.  I always knew to some extent that it was not okay to live this way, and that I wanted to find another way.  But truthfully, I couldn’t find a way to see past these traumas.  Because of this, I always dwelled on the darkness, the negative things that happened.  Awakening helped me to finally change my perspective and see the higher truths behind these experiences.  It was then that I was able to release my traumas.  Once I released the fears associated with the traumas, and was confident I released the negative behaviors that were creating the possibility of these situations, I was able to see these traumas for what they truly were: blessings. 

I know, you’re thinking now, “Wow, this girl is nuts,” and believe me, had anyone told me this before last year, I would have been absolutely disgusted and thought they were bonkers.  But it’s true.  Our souls are sent here to learn lessons and grow.  Truthfully, it is only when we are placed in unideal situations that we learn anything about ourselves at all.  It is in these downfalls that we learn our true strength and resilience.  It’s those of us who overcome the greatest of adversities that become the strongest, brightest of lights.  In everything in the universe, there is meant to exist the laws of balance and duality.  You cannot experience the beauty of the brightest light without first knowing the deepest darkness.  It is in experiencing this darkness that one grows to appreciate the light.  According to Spirit, the brightest light in the universe, the most powerful force of good is Love.  It is love that gives us the courage and will power to confront and overcome our fears.  This was the truth in my experiences, 

Remember: just as with every other aspect of awakening, releasing these traumas was also a process.  Different facets of them were released at different times, and this fact I’m certain will remain true with everyone. 

I was only able to fully release these traumas and leave them a thing of the past once I released all fears and negative behaviors adopted in effect of these traumas.  Releasing those allowed me to see the higher spiritual lessons I was meant to, and had, learned from experiencing these traumas.  These traumas occurred so that when my awakening began, I would be able to see the negative behaviors I was doing that attracted such situations in the first place.  These traumas illuminated all of my faults and habits I needed to overcome and release.  Had I not experienced these harrowing traumas, I wouldn’t have been able to see that my overly-extreme people-pleasing tendencies were placing me in unsafe situations and leaving me open for people to take advantage—in more ways than one.  They showed me that I needed to protect and assert my healthy boundaries, and that I shouldn’t place others’ desires over my own.  They also showed me that I shouldn’t disregard my intuition’s guidance about a person just out of thinking it was too unkind to cut someone out completely.  I shouldn’t allow lower vibrational people into my space because it creates the opportunity for me to be abused—whether that’d be verbally, emotionally, physically, sexually, energetically, or professionally. 

All of this helped me to see my lack of self-worth and self-love.  Viewing myself as less valuable and important as everyone else was unhealthy.  As I worked to release my negative people-pleasing behavior, and everything associated with it, I finally began to see my true self more clearly.  I began to love myself, weirdness and all.  I finally had myself at least on the same level of importance as everyone else, and this extremely changed my life.  With more work, I now see the truth that I must care for myself before others.  I cannot help others or nurture them if I do not first care for and love myself.  Creating that energy of love and care within myself gives me more of that energy to give to others.  This awakening forced me to have to withdraw all of my energy from external forces and relationships because confronting my fears and insecurities daily needed so much energy.  It took some time for me to not feel guilt or regret for having to put myself first, but it revealed the truth that I needed to care for myself first, as I said before.  I should never feel guilty for caring for myself, and if others feel upset or disrespected for my doing so, then they should not be a part of my life.  Now I feel I can more strongly care for others because I have more of that loving, nurturing energy within myself burning more brightly. 

Had I not gone through these traumas, I wouldn’t have learned to love myself, and have healthy boundaries.  I wouldn’t have learned that caring for myself allows me to give even more light and love to others.  I wouldn’t have learned to trust my intuition when it comes to people.  I wouldn’t have learned that I am just as important as everyone else.  I wouldn’t have been able to see the true strength, courage, and resilience I have within.  For these reasons, I feel blessed to have had these traumas in my life, and am truly grateful for them.  I also realized I went through these traumas so I could help other victims overcome and release them too by guiding them through it. 

  The best part of learning these spiritual lessons is that I can now use this hard-earned wisdom to help other survivors overcome the worst of their traumas as well.  Being the caring, compassionate person I am, this brings me great joy and happiness.  I am so grateful that despite everything I had been through, I never gave up my kind, caring nature because I am now certain more than ever that this light energy will help set other souls free and carry our planet’s overall energy into the 5D in time.  Eventually, once survivors are able to see the spiritual lesson gained from their own traumas, they’ll gain the skill of being able to perceive the greater spiritual lessons in everything, even as they are occurring.  This gift is a higher dimensional awareness we will gradually learn to ground into reality.  I find such satisfaction and excitement in knowing this will come.