I got this new crystal pendant the other day. Green has always been my favorite color, but I bought it because Green Aventurine is the crystal associated with oak trees. The oak tree is the symbol (I like to think of it as a soul-level coat of arms) for my original soul—the soul before it split into the masculine and feminine, the whole soul. With time and growth, I see more and more of this truth, of the attributes associated with the oak tree, present within both mine and the masculine’s lives and personalities. The oak tree is associated with strength, resilience, fertility, wisdom, creation, and is a major ‘character’ in not only Celtic mythos, but Norse, Greek, and other pagan mythologies. But what I feel resonates most strongly is its association with the cycles of death and rebirth, and ascension/awakening. The oak’s roots run deep, representing the descent into the Otherworld/Underworld. As the tree grows, or you move up its trunk, you ascend into higher vibrations, with its branchs reaching ever higher into the heavens.
The oak symbolizes those who can experience the cyclical nature of death and rebirth into the heavens. This correlates with the heavy Scorpio presence in my energy, as Scorpio is the energy of Death and Rebirth. This also speaks to my soul’s divine purpose in this lifetime, to accompany and nurture those going through their ego deaths—as it is from the waters we are born, it is to the water we return to in death, and it is water from which we are reborn. I serve as the vehicle for others to drive in safety through the shadows just as the Cancer woman I am (as Cancer is the energy of the Chariot).
Everything, literally everything, happens for a reason. Even down to the day your were born and the astrological significance of it. Cancer is the cardinal water sign, and my energy is very much that of flowing water. My stellium is in Scorpio (moon, north node, and Scorpio’s ruling planet: Pluto), symbolizing my connection to and experience with Death. Even in the physical plane, my degree choice was forensic anthropology, which had me literally holding human remains in my hands. To do so, you have to be emotionally numb or emotionally unattached to death. I’d been that way since I was a kid. Funerals were always entirely more awkward for me because I never felt the way I knew everyone else had. Either way, both physically and spiritually, Death is my closest companion.
As I mentioned previously, I am fully aware that my divine purpose is to help guide other survivors of abuse and other traumas—those who have experienced the worst—out of their darkness and into the light. I struggled for the past year or so with how I would be able to do this without compromising my firm stance in that this mustn’t be done for money or personal gain. I refuse to allow society to make me lose my compassion for others by making me fear I can’t survive without money. I will not take advantage of others’ confusion and darkness to further my own aims. So, my desire has been to allow a solution to flow in—one that would illuminate a career path I can walk that appeases another of my passions.
The door of opportunity has opened. What I desired most for a new career path was a career that I could work remotely so I could work it while travelling, and live anywhere as long as there is good internet. I mainly wanted to be able to be as flexible as possible, in order to make the space for another to enter my life, or rather so I can fully adapt to his. I also desire strongly to travel and experience more of nature’s stunning scenery and other cultural practices, again, with this person. Well, lo and behold, the universe brought me in something better than I had imagined: an opportunity to be a travel agent. This allows me to work remotely with hours designed at my own discretion, and best of all, gives me discounts to travel and on flights, and even free trips. Sure, I will have to work hard to start seeing results, but I know this opportunity is far better than I hoped for. This will allow me to enjoy my favorite things, adapt to my favorite person’s life, and allows me to do my soul’s calling of helping other survivors heal without compromising my values.
I feel so abundant. I have my three beautiful kitties who remind me every day that unconditional love exists. I’ve manifested an opportunity that exceeds my wildest imagination. I no longer feel it’s necessary to block my Queen of Cups nature, and I am confident in my ability to manifest anything I need in life whenever I need it. I’m an Empress for certain, and I look delightfully forward to whatever the universe has in store for me.
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